Europe :)

                        That's a picture of me, my mom and my siblings at Romer Square, Germany :)


I kind of miss Malaysia. Miss my dear friends :') FYI, I'm staying in Poland right now. gaaah. It should be snowing right now, but there's no snow! WHATTHEHECK?! :( Maybe in December, I hope so. If not, no snow on Christmas eve! :'( Poland is a very nice country I supposed. :D The weather is just perfect. And the people are VERY NICE! unlike Germany, they are rude and arrogant! >:O

But Germany is a very nice country! The weather, environment are just perfect. :) And Germany people are very big. Even teenagers. I felt so small back then. Polish people are just average. Not so small and not so big. I like living in Poland, although they don't speak English, they still tried to talk and communicate with me. :)

I don't know how to end this. Let's just say, Goodbye and have a great day! 

Tears

Tears that drops from the right eye indicates your tears of happiness. And tears that drops from the left eye indicates your tears of sadness. :) But sometimes I just want to cry for no reason.

Breaking Dawn Part 1

I just watched this movie. And it really made my day! This movie was fucking awesome. I can't wait for part 2. Ya know, my mad feelings just gone after I watched this movie. Honestly I cried. :') It's really really sweet! I LOVE IT. I mean I love all of the twilight saga. :) Never missed even one of them. The romance is just so meaningful and I'm so touched :') SERIOUSLY I CAN'T WAIT FOR PART 2. :)

Nightmare.

What the fuck is happening here?! You know, every fucking night is a fucking nightmare to me! EVERY SINGLE FUCKING NIGHT! Is this what I have to do for my whole life?! OH FUCK OFF, i'm gonna end up killing myself! This is not what I want! Nobody fucking appreciate me, nobody fucking empathy me, nobody gives a shit about what I have done before! Nobody even understands me. I have nobody to talked to. I used to have my very best friend to talk to about ALL MY FUCKING PROBLEMS! But now I have nobody. I need my best friend. She's the only one who can understand me. And I don't know how to express my feelings now, so I'm gonna let go all of it here. I don't give a fuck about what I'm doing right now! I feel like crying everyday. I feel pissed off with everyone. I just want to disappear from all of these. THIS ISN'T WHAT I WANT. I have a bad dream in every single night. I hate this! hate hate hate hate this! I hate my life, FUCK MY LIFE! I'm not a good daughter, I failed to be a sister. I fight with my father. I don't want all these things happen! Why is this happening to me? THIS ISN'T WHAT I WANT!!! I hate this, I hate everything. I wish I can just go into a coma to just a little peace for just a little while. I wish I can take heroine and don't gives a shit about everything. I maybe a little over-reacting right now. But this is what I feel. I know there's more people have more problems than me. But i'm seventeen. I should be enjoying my life. NOT THIS! Every seventeen years old teenager doesn't have to face like these kind of fucking problems like me. I'm so jealous! I'm so fucked up. My emotions are all blended together and I have no fucking idea how will it be. Maybe Bipolar? Fuck this shit! FUCK EVERYTHING!

UPSR?

Well well, all I can say is congratulations to all UPSR students who got 5A's. :) Good job eh? I see plenty of them got 5A's. I mean was the exam easy as f**k? They got 5A and tell to facebook like, 'hey I got 5A'. and that's it? you don't feel the enthusiasm? When I was twelve, I got 4A's I was like jumping like crazy monkey. I mean for me it was so hard ya know. How bout these kids? some of them already knew their result before the result actually comes out? like WTH? but still anyway, congratulations to them anyway :)

They laughed at me because I'm different, I laughed at them because they're all the same -Kurt Cobain

I don't that quote got nothing to do with this post. But that's for the end of this post. teheee. byebye :)

Kurt Cobain

I'd rather be hated for who I am than to be loved for who I am not. -Kurt Cobain

Such a beautiful talented young man. At a very young age to be gone forever. :'( what a shame. He committed suicide on the year 1994, the year I was born. I'm missing someone i've never even met. He left us with a note saying he's tired of living, and better to burn out than to fade away. He said he was in pain. In pain for a long time. I admire his career, his voice, his music. He managed to success in his life even though he miserably living his life.



in 1992, he married to Courtney Love. I don't know why people insult and make jokes about her. I salute her for her decision to live with this guy who I believe barely functioning. It's not easy to live with this kind of people. You need a lot of patience. I'm just saying. Thereafter, she gave birth to a very beautiful daughter, Frances Bean Cobain. she's now 19 years old. such a beautiful girl.

Eventually, Kurt committed suicide in 1994 at his house in Lake Washington with a note he left. The day when he was gone was the day music eventually dies. Everybody were heartbroken to hear about the news. Such a talented man :( I will always remember you Kurt. R.I.P.

Nobody dies a virgin, life fucks us all

Wanting to be someone else is the waste of person you are

We have no right to express an opinion until we know all of the answers

:) that's all I can say. I love you Kurt. R.I.P....